I did something similar many years ago. I wrote an open letter to those that I loved, or at least that was the heading.
This one is a bit different. These are just random thoughts I have many times a day, some less frequent, but nonetheless they inhabit my brain.
Some thoughts have permanent seats in there.
These thoughts are for the everyones in my life.
And they are things I think of saying… and one day, I plan to say…
But for now, I DON’T.
For whatever reasons. It’s not the right time. I’m not ready. It’s still too close to me.
Some things I may never say, and you can rightly guess at those from the list below… they are more a fantasy, like the things you wish you could say without consequence.
So, without revealing too much, here goes…
“You have no idea.”
“I’ve had more pain than you can imagine.”
“Just fuck off already… and don’t come back.”
“Are you going to care already, or do you not realise other people exist?”
“I will not chase you.”
“I’ve been waiting a long time to tell you this.”
“I am so sorry I didn’t include you all those years ago. I hope you can forgive me.”
“I so wish it was you instead of her.”
“Run while you can.”
“All those years ago when we suddenly got weird with each other, I always cared about you. I was never upset.”
“Sit down… I have a story to tell.”
“Stop sticking up for them.”
“I wish I could tell you, but it’s not my business to say anything. But what you suspect, is ALL TRUE. And I 100% support you.”
“Don’t be nosy… your life isn’t perfect either.”
“Your friendship fills me up.”
“Thank you for not asking me about it. From the bottom of my heart (😢😢😢) thank you.” 💖🙏
What are some things you wish you could say, but feel you can’t for whatever reason?