This Lovely Lyrics series doesn’t necessarily need to pertain to inspirational, uplifting, even a walk-in-a-field-of-daisies kind of nice…
It can be nice in it’s stark truth, it’s realism… in the way it speaks to your soul.
One voice. Few guitar strings. Strong words…
“Help me, it’s like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can’t
It isn’t in my blood
Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I’m overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind, slowly…”
I wasn’t any kind of Shawn Mendes fan when I first heard the radio-friendly and severely over-played Stitches. I would change the station every time it came on. EVERY TIME. I wasn’t a devotee at all.
But then I saw a short interview with him on Jimmy Fallon, and I thought… he was actually a nice kid.
Suddenly I didn’t mind his song all too much…
And then when I heard the beginning a capella notes of In My Blood the first time, they spoke to me.
Did he have any experience in the matter? Did a kid of his age know about sadness, depression, feeling like it is just not worth it?
Had a person of his age, still so inexperienced, seemingly successful with his early musical accomplishments, and yet still so young, well, did he know about this? Well, did he?
It doesn’t matter whether he did or not. Because his words still painted a hauntingly accurate picture.
Because I had been there. I had been in a place of willing myself to give up, telling myself I will not go on due to repeated failure, repeated rejection, repeated blows to the heart, body and soul…
crying and sniffling and slobbering all over the place…
sitting on the bathroom floor…
And just as I had told myself I will not continue, this little voice from inside said –
“Hush. You know you won’t give up.”
Like Mendes says, ‘it isn’t in my blood.’
Have a listen to the first 26 seconds. They are truly touching in their stark wretchedness. I love it. ♥